Well I think the reality of moving is finally hitting Tom and I. I feel like the past year was such an emotional roller coaster, Tom got a new job, we had a baby, we bought our first house. Just as things were settling down, everything gets turned upside down again. I know it is what we are suppose to be doing but I guess I just am afraid to walk into the darkness. I want to see the light and maybe I'm just scared to take that first step. It all seems so scary and stressful. The crying has started for some reason it always happens when I'm in
my car driving. Probably because it's the only time I can really sit and think by myself. I am going to miss everyone so much. I keep teasing Tom that it is like we are going away to college, since we never really went away when we were young. I just have to remember, like Becky was telling me today it's all about faith. I have to have faith that it will all work out, just like President Hinckley always said. My ears are still killing me so after nearly a week of putting up with it I finally went to the Dr. and just my luck he can't find anything wrong with me...are you kidding. I wanted to die...what a waste of $20. Even worse the Dr. came in reeking of Doritos,so sick when you haven't been eating them. I half expected him to have orange fingers. This is why I never go to the Dr.'s for myself, they usually just say sorry nothing we can do...so I'm doped up on Advil and Sudafed. Ken, Kathryn and Marianne came and visited us today on the way to take Marianne to the airport. Brookie was so excited to see them. After they left she kept saying, "Next time can I go home with Grandma?" She loves spending time with them so much. In fact when they are with her they don't want to come home. Makes me feel great, huh?Asia was a sweetheart and watched Riley and Brooke while I went to my Dr.'s appointment and even made dinner for us. It was nice to not have to think about it. Tomorrow Tom and I are going to work on the yard. We have so much to do, baby steps.... Well I'm gonna climb back in bed and finish watching "Moonstruck", funny it brings back memories of my childhood. I remember watching it when I was little, ahh the memories, now if only Tom was home it would be perfect...
